The three images in this post are the first of of the many short excursions I've done while being back in Bonnyville. Since first going to college 4 years ago and getting a taste for travel in highschool, I've had the privilege to see the world and innumerable breathtaking scenes. It didnt take much for me to be enamoured by the feeling of adventure that occurs when boarding an airplane. Even right at the moment of writing this, I yearn to visit New Zealand or possibly move there, but I'm coming to grips with the reality that life can't always advance at the rate we'd like it to. Sometimes goals and ambitions are a life long pursuit that may seem unattainable from the place and time you're standing in. That reality is not comfortable to live with and it's tempting to just give up, shift goals, or even lose all energy that goes into working in a positive direction. To sum it up, I'm feeling impatient, stuck, frustrated, and a little helpless being back where I grew up with an identity that is significantly different from when I left.
I enjoy the people and area but career wise I dont see my goals being attainable. Maybe there needs to be a pioneer, but at this point I don't think I'm capable of that. I have a lot of self doubt and it doesnt matter how much people affirm my skills; that doubt is always going to be eminent. Anyways, I'll be working on overcoming it and creating images that people love and convey a message. Thanks for reading and if you like what I'm writing or my images be sure to share it.